I FORGOT TO TELL YOU THIS
I bet it would have been better if you were here. I can see it.
WFH wouldn’t have been this bland if you were there across our room bossing me around. Its for sure I would have given you a hell when you asked me to switch on laptop chargers and fan calling me all across the home. Its for sure I would have made you do the dishes while I cooked. Its for sure I would have kicked you out of my blanket mercilessly. Its given that I will not share my food with you and will still ask for yours. What’s mine is mine, What’s yours is mine. There is no doubt that I would still push you into dad’s room to talk for me. And not to mention, I would have shamelessly blamed you for messy wardrobe when mom scolds.
Still, we could have done all that.
I swear, you cannot keep bringing up the story about the time you bought me ice cream for youth festival for everything that you want me to do. You cannot keep hating all my crushes, you have to accept at least one! And ofc, You cannot always be our parents’ best daughter, leave the stage already :/
Still, I would have enjoyed all of that.
Every time you brag about the way you brought me up, I listen to it, with pride knowing the way I can lean on you. I know the way you have stayed for me during my darkest days. I also know the way you let me be the elder one knowing how I’ll nag you. Every night when I sleep, I remember the 23 years we had been together.
Today, I can hold myself back from telling you my troubles, to listen how much you enjoy your new life. I can spare all my nights to plot and bitch your enemies along with you. I can still smuggle food and supplies to your flat when you need. But its never going to be the same as old, but I am happy to see how much happy you are in spite of all that is happening around us.
Phew! All this seems so cringe, I think its worth cringing, if its for you. I am generally a person who is very expressive about what I feel, still why didn’t I ever tell you how much you mean to me when you were right there next to me, across the room, in my passenger’s seat, travelling with me, sleeping next to me, stealing my clothes!
Does this conclude that I miss you?
